Nikki's World
I'm not wise and I'm not all-knowing, but the things I've experienced and the thingsI've exposed myself to have taught me that the possibilities in life are endless, which is why I truly believe that we can do anything- if we only put our mind to it. |
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
Monday, March 14, 2005
I told myself a long time ago to stop reading books that make me feel things I'd rather not feel right now. It just took that and a quick visit from my mom to bring out feelings I thought I'd left in California. The thing is, before I moved, I wallowed in these feelings. Now I'm afraid to feel them because my support system is in another state, on the other side of the country. I know better than to think I can run from myself. I just wasn't willing to accept it. I'm starting to wonder if this was the one I let pass me by. Or maybe I've always wondered it. After ending the last relationship I told myself if I ever got the chance to let it all out I would. Except I didn't get that chance, since the thing I'd been most dreading came true. And now I can't seem to get myself out of the pattern. How do you convince yourself it's over when you never really had an end? I think I'm beginning to understand the concept of closure.  |