Can't sleep and I haven't been here in a long time. It's hot in here.

Too much to talk about. I'm in the mood to hang out with friends, but only a few certain friends. Otherwise I just want to stay home with my mom and watch TV with her. Or sleep.

I'm blind. No contacts no glasses. So ignore the bad spelling.

Why has the thought of spending time with most of my friends annoyed me lately? There are only 3 people I want to spend time with right now. And sadly I don't want to see the rest of them. That makes me a bad friend.

I've been feeling so overwhelmed lately. There's work and all the traveling and events we've got going on, my mom's back surgery, and for some reason all this emotional shit has come up to haunt me recently too. And the move. I'm so confused now about the move. I don't know what to do. And all I really want is someone to hold me while I cry it all out. And I want that person to be a guy. And I want him to care enough about me that he'll take the time to find this and do something about it. I want to feel like someone cares about me- and not in the familial kind of way. I feel like such a baby. I also feel completely breakable right now and I hate it. All my life I've prided myself on being the strong independent one. I hate being like this. *sigh* I don't know anymore.
posted by Nikki at 1:16 AM