At the beginning of today's staff meeting, we were each supposed to name one thing we wanted out of 2008. Of course, the thing I wanted to say is so not allowed to be said out loud. So I said happiness. Although that one is probably the more revealing option, if you read it the right way. I hope no one was looking at me as I said it, because it felt like I had this look of "I'm saying it because I don't have it right now" on my face and that would be revealing way too much at work. Of course, if I'd said the other thing, I'd just feel cheesy and stupid. But that's the one real wish I have. And it's the one that means the most to me, because I'm not so sure that I'm ever going to have it. Happiness is doable by myself. The other one is not.
posted by Nikki at 10:57 PM

I'm still awake. I can't sleep. I don't want to go to work anymore. I want it to keep raining. I think I'm bipolar.
posted by Nikki at 1:34 AM